I finally finished boxing up my 100 butterflies to send to the Holocaust Museum show. I procrastinated so long on my artist statement that I almost forgot to send them altogether! I also wrapped and packaged the storybook for Johnny. (from yesterday’s post) These were both large, involved, time-consuming projects, and it felt great to complete them. Along with the celebration of completion came a strange feeling I couldn’t quite figure out at first. I thought it was a fear of having no next big project…and that is part of it. But it’s also grief that I am feeling. I am about to send 101 of my creations out into the world. Who knows what will happen to them, or if they will be appreciated. There is courage in releasing them, even though I would never dream of keeping them. They were made to go.
I listened to a talk recently by the man who wrote "Love, Medicine and Miracles." He said that when you notice you're feeling bad, ask yourself "What nourishment do I need to resolve this feeling?" Then listen to the answer that comes to you and follow it, Tonight the answer that came to me was to celebrate completing my creations! So I made a nice meal: vegetarian shepherd's pie which I am enjoying with some red wine. And I decided to rent a movie I have been wanting to see for a long time called "Hugo." I highly recommend it for anyone who loves France, dreams and steampunk! ;)
And yes, I feel much better now.
Farewell my babies! May you lift the spirits of those who see you as you lifted my spirits when I created you!