Lately, people often approach me with worried faces asking “How are you?”
I just smile and say “I’m hanging in there.” (Because if I say more, I will burst into tears)
But here’s the truth, just between us friends:
Losing the two people who represented lasting love and family to me is completely overwhelming. All of my circuits are blown, and I’m not really sure who I am anymore.
It’s hard to describe what it feels like to suddenly become an orphan. It doesn’t matter what age you are when it happens, or even how close you were to your parents. A hole is opened in your heart that only God can fill. But right now, I grieve the death of unconditional human love that only parents can provide. I am a stranger in a strange land, and a shell of my former self. Maybe that shell will be refilled, or maybe I’ll just travel lighter from now on. Not even sure what I mean by that, but it sounds deep, eh?
I thought I would share with you some of the wonders that have kept me from drowning in a pit of despair, in case you ever find yourself in a similar spot. Top of the list, of course, are my friends. My BIF Billizetti threw a lavish cyber tea party to cheer me up . He even invented a new alter ego for me: Margurella! Thanks Bill!
You know how I love doing a year-long art project every year… Well, when Jan. 1st came along, I still didn’t have a project in mind. I started searching online for ideas, and this is where I ended up. My pix are here . They’re nothing major, just tiny slivers of time. I like this site because you can browse photos and get lots of inspiration, plus leave comments and make new friends.